Johnny Depp (my first love) movies : ranked.

JOHNNY FREAKING DEPP.

An interesting character to say the least. Whether you love him or hate him (kind of like Taylor Swift), you cannot deny that he is one of the most talented actors of the 20th-21st century. He becomes every role he plays, which is probably why he is so insane honestly.

I posted Instagram polls for a few hours with a few of his movies to see which one was my following’s favorite. I was incredibly surprised/not surprised at all at the answer.

Let’s get into the top 3 (according to the polls) movies real quick.

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory: tied for 3rd place

If you didn’t learn the dance moves to each oompa loompa song, you are lying. Straight up. I honestly didn’t expect this one to do as well as it did because as much as I love the way he portrayed Wonka, I’ve heard so many conflicting opinions about how he played that role.

Alice in Wonderland : tied for 3rd place

One of my all time favorite stories made into a movie with Johnny as the Mad Hatter?!!! THAT’S A BIG YES FOR ME. Your favorite part was him doing the Futterwacken right? Because same.

Edward Scissorhands : second place

This movie is personally my favorite of his so I probably would’ve ranked it first BUT I was so happy that others like it as much as I do! It makes me want to have a watch party during Christmas. I love not only his sweet-natured character, but also the way the movie was filmed. The colors, the shots, the music, the cast… WINO(NA) FOREVER (right, Johnny?).

Pirates of the Caribbean 1-5 : first place

….. what.

After I was thinking about it for awhile, and I do mean awhile, I realized that this franchise was one of the more popular so I can see why it was ranked first. It’s just that more people saw these films than maybe some of his older ones. They really are great movies, with an amazing cast. And Captain Jack Sparrow is like a household name. I’ve definitely dressed as him for Halloween one year. So I understand.


Other movies that were up to vote – ranked in order from most to least popular by my followers :

  1. Sleepy Hollow
  2. Crybaby
  3. Sweeney Todd / Secret Window (tied)
  4. Finding Neverland
  5. What’s Eating Gilbert Grape / Donnie Brasco (tied)
  6. Benny & Joon
  7. Nick of Time

He obviously has many more films, but the ones in this post were some of my favorites. If you haven’t seen any of these or you’re just obsessed with him to the point that you have a pillowcase with his face on it, do the following:

Call in to work + run to OnCue for your favorite snacks + plop yourself in front of the TV for the next 24 hours to watch as many of these films as you can fit in.

Suggestion ~ Watch Finding Neverland for a good, ugly cry ; Follow that with Benny & Joon or Crybaby ; If you want to see an incredibly talented Leonardo DiCaprio and wonder why the friggin crap he hasn’t won more awards, watch What’s Eating Gilbert Grape ; Then depending on whether you want to crap your pants, or you want to appreciate your loved ones a little more, Secret Window or Nick of Time.

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self care ritual.

Lately, I’ve been seeing lots of people talk about what their daily routines are, and lots of people discussing their anxiety, stress, & depression.

I’m not saying in any way that a self care ritual will completely take away your negative emotions or “fix” anything at all, but the past few months have taught me that taking care of yourself is crucial. Spending time on YOU isn’t a selfish act, it’s actually necessary if you want to pour positively into the people around you.

What you put into yourself will manifest into every other aspect of your life. I know for me, PPD still rears its ugly head on occasion and I have to make every effort to tell it “I’m stronger than you.” I just want to encourage you, if you’re feeling burnt out or stressed or like you’re starting to fall into a dark place, do something that brings a little light back. Even if it’s something small. Here’s some examples of what I’ve been doing this month to care for me.

Pictures shown below !

  • Taking a hot shower + wearing my husband’s flannel pj pants
  • Treating myself to apple butter rosemary cinnamon lattes OR a good ol’ chai
  • Using my Twinkle Apothecary products
  • Making homemade coffee scrubs on my face before bed
  • Rewatching Gilmore Girls – an episode a day … OKAY sometimes 5 episodes
  • Stitching something every week and giving it away

Self care is self respect.

women : inspiration > competition.

It’s weird to me that women compete. Not that men don’t, but with women I feel it’s magnified and personal. We tend to see other women as a threat and it’s difficult to applaud when good things happen to them. So why is that? In a world where women still struggle for basic rights, why do we spend so much time seeing a contender in one another instead of a support system?

For this post, I decided to turn to two of the ladies in my life to ask that exact question.

(I was going to just use little excerpts of what they said but both made really valid points so I’m taking what they said word for word ; you can tell they’re both gifted writers.

Bailey:

This question is really hard for me to articulate an answer for because I feel there are so many contributing factors. I don’t think it has anything to do with women being more catty, competitive, or vain than men; I think it has everything to with our society and culture placing unrealistic expectations on us. We are expected to look, dress, speak, act, and do things a very specific way. “Don’t be shy, but don’t be obnoxious, either. Cover up your flawed skin, but don’t wear *too* much makeup. Lose some weight. Eat a burger. Quit being lazy and get a job, but don’t put your kid in daycare.” The expectations are absurd and exhausting. We are, from a very young age, criticized for who we are and for not measuring up. We are being taught by our society to examine ourselves thoroughly for any physical or personality “flaws”, and this self-analysis carries over into analyzing our fellow women. We have never been taught to accept ourselves as we are, to be unique, so we go with the grain of everything we’ve ever known and we subconsciously ask other women and girls to fit into the same box that we’ve been asked to fit into.

Kelsey:

I think the root of it all is insecurity in our own identity, as well as jealousy. We look at successful women and think “okay, apparently I must look like that, sing like that, dress like that, etc. in order to have the same success she has.” But success isn’t by any means easily defined. There are many roads to get there, and even more importantly, it’s not a limited resource! That’s the thing I always try to remember: just because others have found joy and success doesn’t mean I can’t too. So why not celebrate with women in their accomplishments because one day it might be my turn or your turn, and that’s something to be excited about!

Writing over this topic really convicted me and forced me to search my motives and my thoughts towards the women around me. And just like any other harmful thought, they won’t just go away or cease to exist. It will take every effort to take captive those thoughts and meditate on the goodness of each woman you come into contact with. Celebrate with them, pray for them, encourage them, stand with them, LOVE them.

5 items to stop buying.


Downsizing and producing less waste is HARD especially in a world that promotes convenience > everything. 

Here is a small list of things that are easy to stop purchasing that will save you cash as well as reduce your carbon footprint.

1. Paper towels

I know, they make cleaning up a breeze. But they’re just so wasteful, and the alternative is not much more inconvenient at all. “Un”paper towels are gaining more popularity. You can either purchase these from online zero waste stores, or (if you could not care less about aesthetic because so what right?!) you can use regular hand towels or even cut up old shirts and repurpose them! 

I just keep a basket of “cleaning rags” and a drawer of “hand towels” and wash them separately. 

2. Cotton rounds / qtips

This one was a little difficult because I used cotton rounds to remove makeup and moisturize my face. Also how the heck do you clean your ears out if you have no qtips?! Well, fear not. 

There are reusable cotton rounds all over the place. Etsy, amazon, zero waste shops, or you could make them. 

As for qtips, I’ve been just using a piece of tissue to wipe the outside of my ears and that’s it. But there are compostable qtips and also stainless steel ear picks if you just absolutely need an alternative!

3. Name brand clothes 

What is the human obsession with having things that say a certain word on the tag or in the corner of your sweater or on the side of your shoes? Most clothing sold in big stores are made poorly, they’re made overseas, and most are made by underpaid men, women, and children in sweatshops. 

My advice is to either buy well-made clothing from local shops and makers OR buy secondhand! There’s a huge stigma around purchasing from a thrift store and it’s literally just a pride issue. You’d be amazeddddd at how you can stretch a dollar when you thrift. Plus, I’ve found all kinds of name brand clothing at secondhand shops if that’s your jam!

4. Cleaning products 

Guys. It’s a scam. You don’t need one cleaner for your floor and one for your mirror and one for your counter tops and one for your windows and one to dust… just no.

Either spend a little extra money on natural products like YL, Seventh Generation, Honest and you can use the same product for multiple surfaces OR seriously at WalMart, Target, etc there are multi-surface products. Get that one can instead of 5 different products that you honestly don’t even need.

5. Beauty products 

I’m not saying to not purchase any beauty products, calm down. I am saying that like the above point, we tend to over spend on things we think we need, or items we buy as “backup” or “just in case.” 

Simplify your beauty routine! Do you really need 5 different products for your hair and 3 different moisturizers and 16 shades of lipstick and 4 eyeshadow palets? Nah fam. 

Challenge yourself to only buy something new once you’ve completely run out of what you have. That might mean making yourself wear that perfume you haven’t worn in 2 years. 

BONUS NUMBERS

6. Seasonal decor

This is one that for me seems like common sense up until I walk up into Michaels during Christmastime and then ALL BETS ARE OFF, GET ALL THE THINGS.

I’m not saying to not decorate for the holidays. But I think there’s definitely a way to do it that isn’t just purchasing excessive items and then having to buy containers to store it all in throughout the year. There are small touches you can make to your home without going overboard. Purchase a few pumpkins on sale but withhold buying signs and banners and hanging skeletons. Put up a Christmas tree and some mistletoe but maybe don’t purchase seasonal pillows and doormats. Instead of getting lots of holiday candles, either use a diffuser or opt to bake something before having guests over so the real smell of apple pie is in the air!

7. Starbucks

Please don’t chunk your psl at the computer screen. Hear me out. I can get down on a caramel macchiato as much as the next white girl. BUT. Starbucks is incredibly expensive. Take a look at what you spend in a month and then think about what you could be spending that money on. 

Starbucks is also a chain. Not that chains are all bad (hello, Mickey Ds, my old evil friend). But if you are just really needing some coffee, why not spend that same amount and get even more caffeine for your buck at a local shop instead? … Yeah, we all noticed you changed your sizes Starbucks, you ain’t sneaky.

ALSO invest in a takeaway cup, wherever you decide to get coffee. Keepcups are great for that. Swell bottles are great. Yetis are great. Even if you need to keep a mason jar in your car (which is not the easiest to drink a latte out of, let me tell you). Do whatever you have to do to reduce that plastic. As long as you’re respectful, most businesses will not tell you no. 
If you’re on the same journey I am, I hope this helps a little! Leave your ideas or thoughts or even your own tips in the comments!

tattoo time.

I’ve been seeing quite a few people explain all of their tats, and I love reading about them. It’s so fun to hear about the thought process behind each one, whether it was to commemorate a special event like a birth or death, or whether it is something as simple as their favorite food.

And according to an instagram poll, this topic seems to be one that other people feel similarly about. So here we go.

I got my first two tattoos the summer before my third year of college and I had just turned 20. I had gone on a mission trip to Swaziland the summer before as well as this summer, and felt a very strong connection to the country. Leading up to the trip, whenever I prayed over Africa or it’s people, Isaiah 6:8 was always heavy on my heart. “Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”

Fast forward a few weeks. I was spending the night at my friend Bailey’s house and our other friend Alex was with us. We were having a last little hoo-rah complete with Bridesmaids & powdered sugar waffles when we decided to drive up to the Lawton mall (LOL) and all of us got a tattoo. It was a really memorable night. Plus mine didn’t turn out super awful… you can’t tell but I’m rolling my eyes.

Outline of Africa on my right hand.

“SEND ME” on the backs of my ankles.

My next one was very thought out, and it was one of the first I ever wanted. When I was in high school, I watched a documentary called “Furious Love” and it completely wrecked my thought process on people… in the best way. I decided then that I would spend my life loving people furiously. Fervently. Passionately. Sincerely. With everything in me. Even when it was hard, even if it made others uncomfortable. I wanted people to feel how powerful the love of God is. I got this the summer before my last semester, and it was for my 21st birthday. It was done by Caleb Lyons at Beauty From Pain in OKC.

“love furiously” on my left arm.

These next two were incredibly spur of the moment. I was at Bailey’s bachelorette party and we all were talking about going and each getting something small. So we get to the tattoo parlor around 10 or so (the only place that was even still open… I’m talking bars on the windows and everything). When we walk in and we’re looking through the books and the art on the wall and EVERYONE BACKED OUT (I’m still bitter, ya’ll) except one of her cousins. I ended up getting an outline of a circle and an outline of Oklahoma. The circle represented that last year of my life. It had been the biggest year of change, and God was the only constant. ……..but 50% of it was that I also looked on Pinterest and really liked how minimal it looked. STOP JUDGING.

The outline of Oklahoma….. in case I ever forget where I was born or where I live I guess.

I regret nothing.

Outline of a circle on my left bicep… bicep is used lightly here.

Outline of Oklahoma behind my right bicep, above my elbow.

The sixth one was also spur of the moment. It was the end of my last semester of college *tear.* Aaron had just come back from Australia and we were having a day date in the city when we talked about getting a tattoo together. I had the idea of getting something to commemorate Narnia for a long while. I loved the books and the movies, and something about it felt very magical. After some thought (not a lot of thought, because we decided literally that day), I wanted to have a lamppost inked on my wrist. “I have come,” said a deep voice behind them. They turned and saw the Lion himself, so bright and real and strong that everything else began at once to look pale and shadowy compared with him.” 

It needs to be touched up something fierce, and honestly isn’t the best looking thing in the world BUT it holds much meaning and memories with it.

Lamppost on my left wrist.

My biggest piece was done a few weeks after the lamppost. This is my favorite one, and the only one I’ve gotten for other people. I had saved up for this a long time and debated about the placement, what it would look like, the colors, everything for over a year. The heart with flowers is meant to represent Isaiah 61 ; For as the earth bursts with spring wildflowers, and as a garden cascades with blossoms, So the Master, God, brings righteousness into full bloom and puts praise on display before the nations. 

Each flower though represents a member of my family. Daffodil for my mom, larkspur for my sister, Lily of the Valley for my dad, and then a rose for me. I wanted the whole piece to look very much storybook-ish. I’ve had SO many people ask if I’m getting the heart shaded or filled in and the answer is no. I like the line work and it reminds me of stained glass. It was done by Caleb Lyons at Beauty From Pain in OKC.

Heart with blooms on my left forearm. 

Next up was one I made an appointment for quite awhile in advance. There was a girl that had been apprenticing at Beauty From Pain and I absolutely loved the artwork she had showed me. She seemed to specialize in floral line work so I decided to get this piece from her. It’s nostalgic for me because it reminds me of my aunt taking me camping when I was a little girl. I loved picking up leaves and wildflowers, and journaling about everything I saw or smelled or touched.

This one was done by Lauren Miller, now about to open her own shop in OKC!

Indian blanket + wheat stalk behind my left bicep, above my elbow.

I got the last two at the same time, and they were my first ones after being pregnant and having Holland. I almost didn’t because I was breastfeeding, but the person I went to I trusted 110%. I went in wanting my dream piece. The one piece where after I get it, I would be happy never getting a tattoo again. BUT long story short, it didn’t work out with the piece I wanted and the placement I wanted it at. It’s all good. Still wanting to get that soon.

What I DID get were little ones that had been on my list for awhile, so it all worked out.

The glyph represents the word “create.” I tend to get in my head more often than not, and I’ll talk myself out of doing things if I can’t be the best at it right away. I get really discouraged and then I’ll give up. The past few months have shown me that creating things with my hands and doing it for other people is incredibly therapeutic. I truly believe it saves my sanity sometimes.

The last one is powerful. The last three words spoken by Jesus when he was on the cross. They hold so much life. Translated from Greek it means “paid in full.” All debt that we ever owed is irrelevant now because of His perfect and untarnished love. Even when He was hanging there, struggling for breath, He was asking God to forgive. Ya’ll that gets me all kinds of emotional trying to comprehend how much He cares about you and I.

When he had received the drink, Jesus said, “It is finished.” With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. John 19:30

Both were done by Lauren Miller, who was then at BlackMint Collective.

Glyph on my right forearm

“it is finished” on my left forearm

 

tips to create a minimal home.

Collect moments, not things.

I love that quote because it’s so easy to get caught up in having the next best thing, wearing the “right” clothes, going along with whatever trend is happening at the moment. But when I’m old and gray, I want to look back and know that my thoughts and actions and finances were all put towards my family and the lives of others.

The following are just tips and tricks I’ve found that helped me minimize my material items and help our family live in a clutter-free environment.

(in no specific order)

  • PURGE YOUR CLOSET. There are lots of ways to do this. There’s the challenge where you start at the beginning of a month and get rid of one thing the first day, two things the second day, and so on and so forth. I personally like to just go nuts getting rid of anything I can. When it comes to clothes, I ask myself “have I worn this in the last three months, does it fit me well, do I feel good in it?” If its a ‘no’ to the last two questions, I automatically chunk it. If its a ‘no’ to the first question, I give that article of clothing another try and if I’m still not feeling it, I chunk that also. There’s more about this on one of my previous blog posts!
  • ORGANIZE YOUR KITCHEN. I guarantee there are dishes or utensils in your kitchen that you’ve either never even used, or didn’t even know you had. That can either be a great thing (I just purchased a wine stopper from Target and I ALREADY HAD ONE?!), or you can go ahead and donate them because if you’ve been getting along all this time without it… I mean… keep using that big spoon as an ice cream scoop… My point is that most kitchen utensils have multiple uses, so you don’t need 2 different strainers, you don’t need 6 pots of similar size, and you definitely don’t need a decorative butter knife. So get in there and get rid of some stuff! [And don’t go and buy that super cute plate from Ross that’s so tiny it serves no purpose but it says “eat dessert first” in gold lettering so you really want it because aesthetic.]
  • SIMPLIFY YOUR BEAUTY ROUTINE. I hesitated even putting this one because I’m not really experienced in this area. As in I have one makeup bag and it’s only have full. But I’ve seen my friends’ and my sisters’ (yeah I’m looking at you Alli) collection, and I realize it’s a thing. With the amount of toner and mascara and highlight and shampoo and dry shampoo and conditioner and leave-in conditioner and body wash and face balm and makeup remover and contour and lip stain and PLEASE SOMEONE STOP ME. Beauty products never end and if we’re being honest, there are multiple uses for one thing (just like with most products, ex. kitchen utensils). Most of these products are overkill. So just by simplifying your beauty routine every day, you will not only save sooooo much money but will also declutter your bathroom..and bedroom..and purses..and side table.. As a plus, you’ll also reduce tons of waste and harmful chemicals that are floating all up in yo business.
  • LIVE TINY. I use “tiny” very loosely here because we’re all in different stages, some by ourselves, some with 6 or 7 other people, some are parents, some are living alone. Live as small as you can stand. If you’re looking for a place, take into consideration the amount of people you have living with you and go off of that. A lot of times we think we need a bigger space than we really do. The bigger space you have, the bigger the urge is to fill it. And if you already live in a big space, maybe consider downsizing. The only reason I ever think to move into a bigger home is because I love to have people over and that’s hard to do with a small space, but way more often than not, I love living where we do. I like the openness, I like not feeling overwhelmed with “stuff,” and I feel renewed when I realize the amount of things we DON’T have anymore.
  • WATCH YOUR SPENDING. Once you begin tossing stuff out, it’s super easy to get back into the mindset of filling up space. So when your closet begins to shrink, don’t think you need to fill it again. When you downsize your shoe collection, don’t wander into the “clearance” section at Urban Outfitters (or any department store, another post for another day). When you sell a few pieces of furniture that were taking up room, don’t browse IKEA… I’m guilty okay? Before purchasing anything, ask “do I need this?” And if it’s something you just want, ask “will I want this a month from now?” and “is it worth the money and is it good quality?” It sucks to splurge on an item just to change your mind about it later. Which leads to a movie that stays unopened for a year, or that collection of coffee mugs that you just couldn’t pass up because they were so relate-able and cute but you’ve never even used them… also guilty. I’d also add under this point to not buy seasonally, but that could be extreme to some people, which is totally fine. To each their own. Basically just Practice. Self. Control.

 

If you have your own tips and tricks, I’d love to read them in the comments!

where’s the line? 

When hate is loud, love can no longer remain silent.

Unless you live under a rock, you’re aware of what’s going on in the world. Lots of division. Lots of racism. Lots of hate. 

The past few months has me really thinking of what my role is and what it should be. Where’s the line between adding fuel to the fire and just rolling over? I don’t want to add to the hate spewing from all sides, but I don’t want to stay silent either.

I’m reminded in Luke where Jesus told his disciplines to always pray and never give up. Throughout scripture where God fought for justice. 

I’ve spent 23 years of my life hearing hate and saying nothing, watching people slander others (because people get really uncomfortable when others aren’t like them), seeing my brothers and sisters fight for their very livelihood. Starting this 24th year, I’m done just sitting on the bench. 

We’re at a place in this country where we are part of the problem if we aren’t fighting back in love. Maybe you’re thinking that you can’t change other people’s minds, that you’re scared people will look at you differently if you stand up for your beliefs, or that hatred will fall back on you if you voice your opinion. 

But we’re way past that point. WAY past it.

There are people passionately voicing and acting on their hate, so how can we not passionately voice and act on our love? There are men and women and children losing their loved ones, losing their voices, some losing their lives. It’s time for drastic measures. It’s not about our pride anymore, it’s not about our comfort zone, it’s not about what people will think of you. IT IS ABOUT DOING WHAT IS RIGHT.

Calling people “SOB’s” because they do something you don’t agree with is not right. Degrading women (or men) is not right. Forming hate groups is not right. Pretending that racism isn’t real is not right. Treating every race and ethnicity except your own like they’re nothing is not right. Slandering others because of their beliefs is not right.

At the end of my life, I want to be proud that I stood up when others sat down. I don’t want to be ashamed and wish I would’ve done more. I want to be completely worn out physically, mentally, and spiritually because I did everything I could to love people. 



I’m done beating around the bush just because I don’t want to cause controversy. This might cause hate toward me but honestly I’m just done caring. Here’s to standing up for others and fighting for love & for hope even when it seems hopeless.

You CAN sit with me.